Yay. Back to crying, I’m always crying. No one cares. No one listens, I just wanna be better, I just want everything around me to be happy again. I hate what I have become.

You have no idea how much I miss you:/

I thinly being in love is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do..I was never set a good example of it, I was never taught how to deal with it or how to cope when it all went wrong or how to cope at all with such strong emotion. I was brought up with violence and police and scary things thoughts and feelings..I think that’s why I I’m like this. It doesn’t help knowing though, psychiatrists think knowing why your like something can help you change it..it doesn’t. Believe me. It doesnt. I’ve tried.

I’m so proud of all my friends, we stuck with each other and look after each other when others would just turn and run at the first sign of trouble, no matter how many things we have to deal with we will because we care about each other, I’m so proud of all of you.<3

Ah, now I remember why I stopped listening to linkin park..its my trigger music-_-

So instead of just being completely out of money, petrol we are now completely out of money/petrol/electric. Yay

Crying again..always crying..make it better..:’( please, I beg you..